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  • Jan. 12th, 2007 at 11:42 PM
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With half an hour yet to go in the day, I'm still at a post a day for the last three. Good on me.

I had five hours with [info]boobirdsfly tonight and emerged back home feeling like a completely different person. Things seem more hopeful at the moment and less closed and cold and dark. We created a space of honest release together over coffee, theater and woolly gloves. I granted myself the permission to say 'fuck' as many times as I felt like, which turned out to be several thousand, ala:

"You know, the fucked up thing about that fucking emotion is that... FUCK, it's just so fucking ridiculous and I'm not going to fucking do that fucking shit anymore."

Mmm. I love that word.

We also wrote a mini musical while parking. The hit song is "Jumping, jumping, jumping"

An any rate, I feel like I have discovered some tools again that I can use to carve myself out of this funk, which include but are not limited to the return to practice. And I think it's time that I being to develop some of the more psychological workshops I've always had in mind by using myself as an experiment, starting this weekend. I also feel like I can start giving myself the permission to do some things of a more freeing nature for myself.

But I'm going to bed in a few hours and I don't feel empty. That's a good thing.
  • i'm feeling kinda: sleepy, but better

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[info]streamsandpools wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 11:22 am (UTC)
How about a fuck workshop?



OK. Maybe a little too open to misinterpretation...
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[info]beckyb wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 01:34 pm (UTC)
Ha!
HA!

I think it has possibilities.
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[info]drshorn wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 07:37 pm (UTC)
I think you meant to say "open to correct interpretation" ;)
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 07:44 pm (UTC)
Give one? Honey, I need to TAKE one at this point :)
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[info]boobirdsfly wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 04:53 am (UTC)
Oh lord.
Um.

Yah !!!
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 07:28 am (UTC)
Is it strange that she used an otter to ask that question?
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[info]beckyb wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 01:36 pm (UTC)
This sounds all good! When you come visit, it would be nice if it was a time that my reiki teacher does a workshop. I think you might enjoy that experience as a possible model.

fucking awesome.
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 07:45 pm (UTC)
I'll give that some thought.

The funny, or not so funny thing is, that I've given plenty of workshops in the past, and co-facilitated dozens of both workshops and retreats. Somehow as of 1997, that entire past sort of got left behind. I seem to have plenty of models, but very little motivation :)
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[info]beckyb wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 05:00 am (UTC)
Should I just send a check in? What's the workshop going to be on?
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 07:29 am (UTC)
Getting checks from people?

No really, I take this as it is meant, and thank you.
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[info]beckyb wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 01:58 pm (UTC)
Yes to both responses though! Part of it is greasing the pipeline. If you want this to be something that lets you move away from the other job, that needs to be part of it.

Maybe a workshop on effective uses of the word fuck?
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 08:08 pm (UTC)
"Part of it is greasing the pipeline"

I told you, I'm not DOING the fuck workshop! :)
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[info]drshorn wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 07:38 pm (UTC)
Jumping jumping jumping
Cool, I've got some music for that.

There should also be a number called "Fuckedy fuck fuck fuck".
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 13th, 2007 07:46 pm (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
I distinctly remember in the song we sang that there was also quite a long and intricate musical interlude, in which I heard a Shorn guitar solo.
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[info]boobirdsfly wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 04:54 am (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
yup. i heard it too.
tooloolooloolooweelilidooobllloooowwooooliiiiiieeeeeeee.
that's how it went.
you got that ?
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 07:28 am (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
Yep, that's it exactly!
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[info]boobirdsfly wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 04:53 am (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
ooh. yah music for our musical !
purrrrrfect.

fuck fuck fuck.
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[info]boobirdsfly wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 08:25 am (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
also my stage name for that album is Jummabella.
I have no idea why , but this comment told me it and told me to tell you it.
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[info]bwb_archive wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 08:35 am (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
Mine is Marshall Westerminster P. Jumpbutter, the Third, Esquire.
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[info]drshorn wrote:
Jan. 14th, 2007 08:00 pm (UTC)
Re: Jumping jumping jumping
And I'm Spicy Brown. Thanks for coming, folks. We hope you enjoy the show!
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