Back into it. I was just heading to bed tonight when I thought it was maybe too late for a post and that I was far too tired and deserved the extra sleep. And then I thought that as long as I kept thinking things like this, I'd never get back to practice.

I feel like after the wedding and J's visit and the subsequent incident of our blossomed relationships, I was put back down into my old life, but was utterly transformed. As a result, everything is new. This is both joyous and tedious, as with everything being new, everything also feels a bit alien and uncertain. Living in-between two states of change is hard for me and I think it's taken me nearly two weeks just to get my footing here with all that has happened. Neither J nor I am happy with the situation of long-distance long-term, but we are dealing. And I think that dealing will eventually lead to bigger shifts as well.

I'm learning, and for that I'm thankful. I'm having to look at things that have gone hidden for a long, long time, and it's really very exciting to have loads of new and juicy areas to explore and with which to continue to build myself and widen my spiritual life and personal growth. I felt very connected to the storytelling and creativity in my last post, which is a great sign and for that I also feel thankful.

But it's time to get back to practice, which I'll attempt to try to do on a structured basis this weekend. Good thing too, as I leave for vacation with my buddy drshorn in just over a week, and then two weeks later, have my own mini vacation (thanks to a gift from J), at my dream location - a weekend silent and writing retreat at Lake Crescent Lodge.

And now, bed calls. Thank you all for your good words and support.